I posted a photo the other day on instagram explaining how I was feeling lately. So many people I knew were competing this past weekend, and I just got super nostalgic and upset that I wasn’t. This past weekend was Jr. National’s, which is the show that I was initially prepping for before I decided not to compete this summer. I think that’s the main reason why I got upset, and because everyone else was super lean when I was doing quite the opposite. I just started feeling like I needed to jump right back into prep, I wanted to stop reverse dieting, and I just wanted to be up on that stage. However, I know that’s not an option right now.
I KNOW I need the time off to build my metabolism, to regulate my hormones, to give my body a break, to be relaxed and not stressed and just more flexible with life.
Yes, I’ve gained weight – I’m actually much heavier than I have been in a while, and I’m much softer and much curvier. But guess what? I’m eating enough food to support my body and it’s activity level, and enough food for it to trust me (aka: I got my period back) – which is SO important. I’m getting stronger in the gym. I have so much more energy, as well as mental focus and clarity. I’m much more flexible with not tracking all the time, with having a drink once in a while, and going out to eat (which I never am in prep). I’m eating a ton of food, and a ton of carbs. And I love my body, even though I have days where I don’t always have as much appreciation for it. I’m only human, after all!
Current physique. About 15 lbs heavier than I was 8-9 months ago but very happy with where I’m at 🙂
I think so many people go through this, especially competitors, which is why I wanted to express my feelings.
We start “cutting” and all we can think bout is how we can’t wait to start reverse dieting. We start reverse dieting and all we can think about is how we can’t wait to start getting leaner. It’s a never ending cycle.
I think that also causes people to quit too early, regardless if it’s cutting or reverse dieting. The second people start to feel like they’re not as lean they start cutting right away. I honestly think that’s a mistake because then you’re not making any progress, you’re just spinning the wheels and then coming back right to where you were before.
This is why PATIENCE is so important in fitness and it is so stressed. Just as you have to be patient when you are on a fat loss journey, you have to be patient when you are trying to build muscle.
Not only that, but it’s not healthy to stay SUPER lean all the time, especially for women. I know for me, it’s not even about being lean – it’s about my caloric intake. Whenever I drop calories, there goes my hormones. Dieting is a stressor, and your body doesn’t like to be constantly stressed.
It’s so important to look at the bigger picture. You want muscle? You need to EAT, lift weights, and give it time. Things do not happen over night, and while you may not be used to the feeling of not being super shredded, think about where you want to be and what you have to do to achieve it.
Has anyone else been through something similar?