Screw Fear

July 5, 2014

Have you ever wanted to do something but ended up not going through with it because you were afraid?

Afraid of the outcome, afraid of the process, afraid of what people would think, or afraid that you would fail.


I sure have. Plenty of times. Then I end up continuing to think about it, and regretting not going through with it, or wishing that I still could.

Well guess what? It’s never too late to do something you want to do.

About four years ago, I got really into lifting weights. It was my first year in college, and I would wake up early every morning before class to get to the gym and lift. I loved it.

One day, this guy that I always saw in the gym asked me if I competed. I said no, and him and his trainer said that I should think about it because I would have a lot of potential.

Of course I was intrigued, especially since I had just started lifting and couldn’t believe someone would ask me that! So I did what I always do, researched. When I am interested in something, I research the crap out of it so I can know everything about it. Knowledge is power.

So, the more I researched, the more I wanted to do it. But of course, thoughts kept creeping into my mind – could I actually do well in this? I’m not muscular enough. I could never look like those girls. I’m not lean enough. I’m not sassy enough. I’m not brave enough to get up on stage and strut in a bikini. I’m afraid I will fail.


I wrote it off and decided I’d never be able to achieve a body good enough to step on stage with all those other girls. Of course, I wish I had the courage to actually do so, but I just didn’t at this time.

Honestly, I’m so glad I didn’t compete then. The guy talking to me was telling me my meals had to be the size of my fist, HA. I didn’t know too much about it, and I like to know everything I can before I get myself into something, especially something that deals with my health.

Fast forward to now – I’ve finally decided to compete, and I couldn’t be more ready. I’ve literally talked about this on and off for YEARS, ever since that day in the gym. Still, I was afraid. And, I didn’t really have the money because let’s be honest, it ain’t cheap and I’m a poor little college girl.

Anyway, I know that I’m finally ready – mentally and physically. My metabolism is healthy, I’ve gained a good amount of muscle, I’m happy with my body, and I want a new challenge. I’m not doing this for looks, I’m doing this for me. I’ve always wanted to be involved in a sport, and I just feel like I will absolutely love this.

Life starts outside your comfort zone. I’ve promised myself that I would start to challenge myself and step outside of my comfort zone more. Well, here I am.


I want to share my journey and be as honest as possible along the way. I am ONLY prepping in the healthiest way possible. I will NEVER be one of those girls who go to extreme to step on stage. Health is most important. I want to show girls that they CAN prep in a healthy way, and that they are good enough to do something they want to. Screw fear.

I’ll be working with William Grazione at Metabolic Evolution, (recommended by Layne Norton) and he is freaking awesome already. I’ll be following a flexible dieting approach my entire journey. No foods off-limits, so sodium restrictions, no crazy amounts of cardio.

My show will be in November, so right now I’m increasing calories until I start prep in August! I’m excited to share this journey 🙂 I’m also thinking about starting to document it on my YouTube channel so I can get more personal!

Also, I have a guest post over on Britt’s blog today with a glute workout. Check it out!


Should I start vlogging more?

Anyone who competes have any tips for me?

What was the last thing you did outside your comfort zone?


    1. So excited for you lady! I know that many competitors compete through super restrictive diets and tons of cardio, so having an amazing role model like yourself who doesn’t do that kind of thing will be so, so inspiring! Can’t wait to hear more about your prep and how it goes!

      1. Thank you!! Yes, I would neverrrr put myself through that for a few minutes on stage. I’ll show everyone is can be done in a healthy way 😀

    1. To be honest with you, I’ve been thinking about doing the same thing too. Can’t wait to hear more about your prep! 🙂 Could you give me details of how you started in the beginning and what to expect before and during the competition? Do you get paid for prepping and doing competitions? What kind of trainer should I be looking for? How many hours do you lift for prepping, as well as cardio if you do that? Are you going to calorie count your meals? If so, what’s your daily goal until competition? Are your meals a high protein source or a mixture of protein, carbs, and fat?

      Again, looking forward to reading more about it!

      1. Awesome!! I haven’t started prep yet. I’ve been increasing and keeping calories high and I start in August. No, you do not get paid. You actually have to shell out a lot of money yourself – it isn’t cheap! As for a trainer, I would suggest one that follows flexible dieting and doesn’t make you eat 900 cals a day and do tons of cardio. You should know everything about your prep, and you should be able to be picking your food choices. Only doing 2 HIIT cardio sessions a week, everyone is different so I don’t know what I will be doing during prep. Yes, I track macros. My calories are irrelevant to you because my body is completely different! Meals are a mixture of carbs, proteins, and fat. Please do your research before jumping into this! and remember, health is most important 🙂

    1. Oh lady! I’m -super- excited for you! I love that you’ll be focusing on doing it in a healthy way, since there are so many unhealthy extremes in that industry. Definitely looking foreword to following your journey 😀

      1. Thank you so much, Tara!!! Means a lot coming from you since you definitely inspire me 🙂 I agree, my metabolism is MUCH more efficient now. So important to take care of it!

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