So I haven’t updated you all on my bikini competition lately. I’ve mostly been updating on my youtube channel, and balancing the blog, youtube, school, work, and all my other social media channels is certainly tough.
I thought i’d give you all an update here if you were interested, and if you didn’t feel like watching my videos.
I posted this picture on instagram the other day, because this is my transformation so far. The picture on the left was the very first picture I sent my coach, and the one on the right was on Saturday.
The one on the left was after I reverse dieted myself, and honestly, I did not reverse slow enough. The next time I do it after this show, I’ll have the help of my coach and we are going to go slooooow so I can maximize muscle gain and minimize body fat gain.
The picture on the left is about 2 weeks out from my first competition! Holy crap. Initially, I was supposed to compete in November, but I decided I wanted to try and compete about 3 weeks early, and my coach said I looked ready so I could if I wanted to. I decided to go for it, so when I publish this post I will be 10 days out. Yup, freaking out a little bit 😉
Let me just clarify, there is NOTHING wrong with my body on the left. I loved myself then, and I love myself now. If you are thinking about competing, DO NOT even consider it if you don’t love your body right now. That is why I waited so long to commit to compete, because I knew it could be a mind fuck. Do I sometimes compare myself to other girls and wonder if I’m lean enough to compete? I won’t lie, yes. It’s a little hard when you know you will be competing against other girls – that’s the sport. But then I tell myself that is ridiculous. This is about MY journey, and what it took to get here. Me vs. me.
The fact that I set a goal and worked my arse off to reach that goal, gives me a huge sense of pride and I am so proud of myself. That is why I decided to compete. Nothing beats that feeling.
Competing is not about getting a leaner, more ripped body. If that is the reason you are considering it, please reevaluate. You will not be happier the leaner you get. I am competing because I train, I’m not training to compete.
I’ve been dieting for about 11 weeks now? and have used a flexible dieting approach the entire way. This means my coach has never once said “you must eat x, y, z”. He has never told me what to eat. I’ve been able to eat literally whatever I want as long as I fit it into my macros. I know some people give iifym a bad rap, but when you have to be disciplined for a show, I personally think it’s the healthiest approach. Be a strict dieter (when you have to be), not a restricted one.
Want to eat ice cream on prep? Cool, fit it in your macros. It has kept me sane, and I’ve honestly loved this entire process. I really pride myself on not feeling like death or a walking zombie 10 days out. I’ve heard horror stories, and no matter what happens next Saturday, I will be proud of myself for stepping on stage happy and healthy. That is the most important thing to me.
I’m feeling good, and I’m feeling READY. I haven’t done hours of cardio, I haven’t done any fasted workouts, I haven’t done any two-a-days, I haven’t eaten tilapia once, I haven’t had to restrict sodium, I haven’t felt like I needed to binge, I haven’t felt restricted. Cheers to that 😉
Have you ever competed before?
How was your experience?
If not, does it interest you?